I am almost done reading "The Catcher in the Rye." I am suppose to finish it by February but I haven't because of the time my school and work demands and I also have lots of errands to do.
While reading the book I can't help but envy the life of Holden Caulfield. I just wanna be like him but I wasn't able to do it. I just wanna be bad, I am just so tired of living a good life and being good. I want to scream out loud in the streets that I hate God but I just cant because I am scared that some fanatic of religion would throw stone at me. I wanted to be kick out of school and have failing grades and all but I won't be able to that anymore. I have read a lot of self-help books already and they just wouldn't work. I am so tired of chasing success that I am thinking chasing failure would be a good option but even failure is very hard for me to chase. Being a failure is such a luxury to me which I can't afford. I just want to let that bad person out of me. There are so many bad things that I haven't done and I miss of not doing them when I was still young. I want to throw stones in that glass window, I just want to throw notebooks at my teacher just like what my aunt did when she was still in high school and a lot more.