the pay

I hardly feel my pay for this period. Two of my friends borrowed more than half of it. I feel so angry towards them of how they don't or they can't manage their finances. How I wish I can slap them to let them know that I also have things to buy or I just wanna save the money. I can't say no to them for they know that I have I something that I can lend. And that is without any interest and they promised to pay me back in full after two months.

I sometimes evaluate my relationship with them. I don't want to sound bad or that I am counting every favor that I have done for them but its just the truth. I couldn't remember a single event in my life that I have borrowed money from them. I don't even asked a favor from them. I sometimes think of what is the use of having them as my friends. I come to think that my life would have been stress-free without them. All that I have been hearing from them are their problems, this and that and I don't feel that they even bother about how I feel. All that they think of is that how lucky I am because I don't spend that much, of course I don't. For I don't live a life beyond my means.

I'm thinking of maybe next time I would let them borrow money but with interest this time. It would be a nice investment too. I just don't think that I have invested wisely on my friendship with them.