that guy

I am deeply troubled these past few days. It was about this guy whom I am so attracted to. Every time I see him or think of him, I have this feeling that you just want the time to stop or spend the rest of your life together with him. I am happy every time I am with him. He is that type of guy who just light up all my circuits. But there is one thing that I have been looking for a guy that he doesn't have. He don't have any dreams in life. I don't want to settle with a guy who prefers to sit in front of a computer and plays those boring computer games. I want a guy who loves to play badminton, basketball, soccer and someone who dreams big in life. There are other guys out there but I just don't feel the same when I'm with him.

He doesn't go to school anymore. He has a job though but not stable. I asked him if he wanted to finish school or if he has some dreams of getting a better job but he seems not interested. I don't want spend my life watching life happens, I want to go out there and make life happens and that I also want in a guy. I understand why he is feeling that way but considering from where I started he has a better life than me.

I am not looking for a guy who is a millionaire or someone from a well-family. Most of them thinks that world a lot and they failed to recognized that what makes the prize worth it is the journey. I want a guy who is just within my league but someone who dreams. Someone like me who also dreams to be better each day. Someone that who I can celebrate every success of my life. I am not a career obsessed person. I love spongebob, I even like Barney. I also want to have a good laugh and enjoy life but I also have a big dream.

But I just can't understand that no matter how I tried to forget him, I just can't. There is something in him that is so special for me that I just can't explain. I don't know if this is love all I know is love isn't the only ingredient in a relationship.