to eat

I consider eating a task rather than a privileged. I have friends that consider eating a part of their lifestyle. Something like we have to know the food that they eat and where they eat. When they talked about food I got out of place. I could not relate to what they are talking about. I know that these particular place serves great food because I heard it from them. Whenever I eat I can only tell whether the food is too sweet, sour, bitter, salty or a combination of both. It's hard for me to tell if a food is delicious or not, I can only tell whether it can be eaten or not.

I am grateful that I can buy the foods that I wanted to eat. When I was still living with my relatives I used to be the last person to eat. So whatever was left, I eat. Sometimes it was not enough for me and I always asked for when will be the time that I can buy food that I wanted to eat. You know that phrase they said "eat your heart out" something like that. And now I can buy the foods that I wanted but I don't want them anymore. Ever since I don't like eating. Every time I eat I always think of how hard it is to prepare this meal and the dishes after and so on.

Since then I always look for alternatives on how I can survive a day without eating. I used to have candies in my pocket to provide me with the energy I need everyday. I had a room mate once and he said that some marines or those people who work in the navy take some capsules that helps them from not getting hungry. How I wish that eating a meal can be reduced by just taking a pill.