fairy tales

I was packing my things since I am slowly moving now to my new place. I packed the books first that I haven't read yet and some that I wish to keep. I donated the books that I am done reading to the city library. Anyway there was this one book that I even though I have read it already I still keep it with me. It is a collection of fairy tales by Hans Christian Andersen. Others might get their strength from some religious book but I got mine from fairy tales, well there are other books that inspired me too but when I was still young these fairy tales has helped me through in life.

I was an elementary student then when I learned about the wonderful things that I can find in books. My aunt has this book, a collection of all the best fairy tales you can find in the world. I can still remember what my mother did to my half-brother when they visited me one summer. They were in one bed next to me but not that close to me but I can hear my half-brother telling my mother that he can't sleep and asked my mother to tell him bed time stories. I listened to my mother while she was telling a story for him.

How wonderful will be it be to have a mother beside your bed and tell you about the story Snow White before you go to bed. When I watched cartoons about Snow White my half-brother would boast that mama already told her about that. I felt envious and I struggled to learn how to read so that I would know and be able to read the best fairy tales in the world.

These fairy tales that I've read help me survived each day. Hoping that one day I would have my very own fairy godmother that would grant all my wishes. I would wish for a mother and a father. I would wish for a family. But each day as I grow older I learned that fairy tales don't come true. That they are a product of one man's imagination. As I remember those days, these fairy tales that I read in books help me to survive. It helps me ease the pain of living each day by daydreaming that brought me to places where I meet the Cinderella and was welcomed in her very beautiful castle, where I joined Ariel and explored her world in the sea.

When I remember that night today, it made me cry. How I wish that I would have a fairy god mother where I can ask her for a loving mother that would tell me these wonderful stories before I go to sleep. How I wish I could have a mother where we can join the mermaids in the sea or we can ride on a magic carpet together in a far away land.